Sunday, February 01, 2004
I want to watch Dogville (Lars von Trier), Lost in Translation (Sophia Coppola!), Goodbye, Lenin (Wolfgang Becker), Irreversible (Gaspar Noé) among others but I know I shouldn't splurge on so many movie tickets. I gotta make a choice.
Here, the cash-strapped life of an undergraduate becomes reality. I have got a million and one things to do yet everyday, I must make the painful decisions of choosing some while forsaking others. I know I'm not alone and there are many others ten times worse off than I. But do relative comparisons matter when decisions hinge on how much I have in my wallet and how long that will last? Not so much. I don't want to look back at life and remarked, I wished I could have done that, alas a pity I could not afford it then. I am going to make sure it doesn't happen to my kids. Well, that's altogether another complicated issue in itself, having kids and raising them.
It'll be good to point out at this juncture that I'm not blaming my parents, they are doing all they can to make sure that I get what they couldn't get last time. So I'm only continuing on where they will leave off, and hopefully making them proud. I know I am sounding so old-fashioned, but the fact that my parents had daughters and no son to carry on the family line (they didn't mind, I mind) makes me feel so indebted that the need to do well/ make them proud becomes so much more a necessary and urgent matter.
Here, the cash-strapped life of an undergraduate becomes reality. I have got a million and one things to do yet everyday, I must make the painful decisions of choosing some while forsaking others. I know I'm not alone and there are many others ten times worse off than I. But do relative comparisons matter when decisions hinge on how much I have in my wallet and how long that will last? Not so much. I don't want to look back at life and remarked, I wished I could have done that, alas a pity I could not afford it then. I am going to make sure it doesn't happen to my kids. Well, that's altogether another complicated issue in itself, having kids and raising them.
It'll be good to point out at this juncture that I'm not blaming my parents, they are doing all they can to make sure that I get what they couldn't get last time. So I'm only continuing on where they will leave off, and hopefully making them proud. I know I am sounding so old-fashioned, but the fact that my parents had daughters and no son to carry on the family line (they didn't mind, I mind) makes me feel so indebted that the need to do well/ make them proud becomes so much more a necessary and urgent matter.
